Confessions of a Miser

Posted on November 9, 2012 by admin-vasanti

[Mahabuddhi prabhu is a dear disciple of Srila Prabhupada and our Srila Gurudeva, Srila Bhaktivedanta Narayana Gosvami Maharaja. He is instrumental and a driving force in the International Pure Bhakti Yoga Prison Program. He has connected with 4 state prisons thus far and gotten Srila Gurudeva’s books in their libraries (almost 100 libraries) for the benefit of the inmates residing there. His enthusiasm and determination inspire myself (Vasanti dasi) and the others working with the sponsorship program to have Srila Gurudeva’s books in all prisons and libraries worldwide.

He also encouraged the GVP (Gaudiya Vedanta Publications) to register with the Library of Congress for all our books so they are officially noticed world-wide, now they are accepted by so many libraries.

So although he is calling himself a miser and expressing his lowliness for not distributing and spreading his Guru’s books, in actuality, he is a great instrument of our guru varga and great example for all devotees. Here is his article:]


by Mahabuddhi dasa

Dandavat Pranams.  All glories to Sri Guru and Gauranga!

Those of us that are disciples of Srila Prabhupada know how important book distribution was and is to Him and to Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu’s movement.   Our Srila Gurudeva would always ask us “I want my books to be distributed in the same way that was done when your Guru Maharaja was present” please help my disciples.   Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva gave so much time to translate and give us from their heart the moods and words of a “Maha Bhagavat” devotee’s understanding of Sri Sri Radha and Madhava.   They truly wanted to help the fallen conditioned souls get out of Maya and suffering and to be reunited with the devotional service of their Lordships Sri Sri Radha Madhava.   In this endeavor all of us became disciples, pledging our service to Sri Guru as they guided us along the straight and narrow path of “Bhakti”.

Now, after their departure, will be the test of a real disciple, to keep those instructions given to us in our hearts and to enact the services that they expected us to continue on for them.   So, we should measure ourselves,  if as a Grhasta, Brahmacari, or Sannyasi  are we making the grade of expectation of Srila Gurudeva and Srila Prabhupada?   Each of us will have  to stand alone in judgement if we are engaging or not our energies to serve Sri Guru and Gauranga….   If we are just preaching as a Swami or Grhasta and not distributing our Guru’s books to those that we are preaching to, then we are misers…. we may be kidding ourselves that we are really advanced and so many people are hearing from me, but in reality, we mostly are shooting blanks….. the real preaching is that they can take a book home and read it.   These ‘books” are transcendental literatures meant to cause a revolution in the hearts of those that sincerely hear them with an open mind…. we are just insignificant agents allowed by Sri Guru’s grace to engage our services to  assist in the real preaching mission.    These books are “transcendental bullets” meant to fatally wound the materialistic demeanor of the conditioned soul, who ignorantly is suffering in this world of birth, death, old age and disease.   We just have to help these books find and hit their targets… that’s all.

Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva enacted this book distribution so that even the most neophite devotee can be engaged in the service to Sri Guru and Gauranga.  No excuses… take some of the books that they have mercifully translated and spilt their own blood, in their effort  to give to us and help distribute them…. What is the question of qualification or ability?   Preach to your ability, but complete the process by distribution of these transcendental books… What is the difficulty.    I have been to many programs where  devotee’s will speak, but no book distribution was arranged for the guests….what to speak of the devotee’s haven’t even read their Guru’s books….. This should be remedied with the introduction at all of our preaching endeavors…  by arranging transcendental book distribution.    If it isn’t done by the leaders then it won’t be established in our Sanga!

It is sad that Srila Gurudeva’s books are still sitting in warehouses, waiting to find their targets…. where is the lacking of suffering conditioned souls on this planet?  There isn’t!… we just have to put in the endeavor to try to distribute some of these books, even to friends, relatives, colleagues, prisoners, whomever we have in our circle of contacts.     That is the requirement for a disciple of Srila Gurudeva or Srila Prabhupada!

We may be somewhat ashamed that we don’t have time, or money to buy books for book distribution, but still we should want to be useful in this endeavor, so there is even programs for those of us that have little or no abilities or resources to successfully do any book distribution.     There is a great suffering of those conditioned souls that have made mistakes and landed themselves in prisons, they are confined and have nothing but time, and we have seen many of them are ripe having suffered in this material world that they can hear the messages of Sri Guru and Gauranga!  This is a solid book distribution program.  Also, Library distribution… who doesn’t have a library in their city? Do they have our books?  If not, what an opportunity to distribute some books where many can read them… the same with High Schools and Colleges.    Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva were very determined that their books be preserved so that many will get a chance to read them.   So, having them in Libraries and Schools, and Prisons were they can find their target and relieve the ignorance of this kali yuga is thousands of times better then just sitting in warehouses because no one is distributing them.   This is a shameful situation that can be fixed by our tiny endeavors.

Vasanti dasi has an entire program that you can help put books in Prisons, Libraries, schools, colleges…. what a great opportunity for a sincere devotee….also those that can donate money to help book distribution, can assist in this way to sponsor books being distributed.    You can also buy and read your Guru’s books and once you do – you will want to make sure your friends and love ones get a chance to read them as well.     It is the consciousness of “service to Sri Guru” which is our only lifeline to the transcendental Ragatmika moods of Prema, that Srila Gurudeva and Srila Prabhupada are offering to us, by engaging in this book distribution process.   We also must “Read” these books, so many times we heard  Srila Gurudeva and Srila Prabhupada would say… I am writing these books for you…. if we are disciples and we haven’t even read the books our Gurudeva has written, then what type of disciple are we??? How can we represent them?    So, not only do we have to distribute these books as disciples, we have to read and follow them as well.   If not then really what type of disciple are we???

Devotee’s this is just a simple reminder from a miserly devotee, who begs with straw in their teeth to take to heart the opportunity of having Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudeva books be distributed as a means to ease the suffering of this fallen age….as they are still amongst us – living in the sound vibration of their words and books…. Jaya Radhe!    All Glories to Sri Guru and Gauranga!

the lowly and insignificant servant of the vaishnava’s,

the miser known as,

Mahabuddhi dasa