I feel drive!
by Indira dasi
At first I was planning to wait for Taruni in Vrindavan, but it happened that I joined her in Manali. I was thrilled that the weather here is just the same as in my Siberia. It rains almost every day. Apple trees and sweet cherry trees grow everywhere and landscapes are very beautiful and picturesque. I can imagine what a riot of colors was here in the spring! One can drink water directly from the river without filtering and it tastes sweet and fresh like snow. Manali is a place where one can wait till Indian summer is over. That’s why not only foreigners but so many people from all over India come here. Due to so many tourists book distribution is very successful here.
I came on the 18th of May and on the 19th had my debut – first attempt of book distribution. There were four girls here before. When they were doing kirtana with mridanga people were automatically crowding them and taking so many books. But now Anita and Kunja left to other parts of India and there are only 2 of us distributing books here – me and Taruni.
Having filled our backpacks cram-full with books, we usually walk by the local “Arbat” and offer transcendental books to each first passerby. Of course not every first and not even every tenth one buys a book. But after few hours our backpacks nevertheless become empty. It’s actually very exciting process.
I had an experience of donation collecting before and now I’ve experienced book distribution. In Delhi before, I gave people the ladies ashram brochure and brochures about Chanting the divine holy name and another brochure about the relationship between Krsna and Lord Siva. Both processes are extremely captivating, there is no denying! Yesterday while book distribution Taruni asked me: “Do you feel compassion to those people?” “I feel drive” – I answered. I have no idea why but this process is so captivating that it’s difficult to stop. Yesterday it was raining all day and we went outside very late – around 6 pm. We were planning to walk around with books for one and half hour and come back home. But we were able to stop only at 10 and only because we were chilled to the marrow and the market was about to be closed.
In this way we try to serve Gurudeva: we just take our own bodies and make them do things they are able to do. Just to take a bunch of books and offer them to passerby’s – our bodies can easily do this.
One more pleasant point – now, during traveling sankirtana, I chant much more names of God than usually. Because you know when you preach to people you keep on repeating Hare Krishna for hours. You need to say something to a passerby to attract his attention and instead of saying “Hello!” we say “Hare Krishna!” That makes hundreds and thousands extra “Hare Krishnas” a day.
I feel freer now than ever. I used to work for different bosses in different companies and to depend on their mercy and now I’ve changed my master and try to serve Krishna and depend on His mercy. And I can say this is much more interesting, pleasant and fulfilling process.
By the way we plan to go to Sri Jagannatha Puri for the same reason. There will be Ratha-yatra festival there – ocean of people and great book distribution. The only thing that I think will get to me is the heat, but nevertheless I want to get this experience of book distribution at Ratha-yatra festival!
Hope to see you all in Kartika!